

I usually don't get all spiritual on my blog, but I'm afraid I may have to this time. I just returned from an amazing pioneer trek experience in Wyoming with the youth of our ward. I got to go with my two sons, Jordan and Kallai. I was one of the incredible camp cooks. Our food was so good that we were serenaded one night. Well, ok, he was singing the Lunch Lady Song by Adam Sandler, which isn't very flattering, but he apologized later. The weather was cold and rainy, which I didn't like at the time, but I think it helped us to better understand the experience of our Pioneer ancestors, so it was good.









We started out again. By this time, Kallai was starting to wear out. He was the youngest on the trip, and he was struggling to keep going, and he felt like he was getting a cold. His family put him into the cart and let him ride for a while. As the day went on, it stopped raining, and started to warm up. By the time we got to the first river crossing, most of us had taken off our coats and were actually pretty comfortable. Kallai got out and started walking again at the first river crossing, and continued for the rest of the way. Before the first river crossing, we came to a spot where the trail was flooded. The mud was really deep, and the people pushing the handcarts had to take it at a run to keep from getting stuck. Several people fell in the mud which was really stinky.


At the first river crossing, we were told of how the handcart company couldn't find the courage to cross the river, which had ice floating in it, and four young men from the rescue party spent the entire day carrying the people of the company across. The young men of our group were asked to carry the women and girls across, and that it should be a very solemn crossing. A group of women sang as people started across. I was one of the last women to cross, and Jordan carried me across on his back. That was pretty special. On the far bank, people had begun singing hymns, and we continued to sing as the men brought the handcarts across. One of the songs we sang was "We thank thee oh God for a prophet" and it was then that I felt the spirit the strongest. I realized that the handcart pioneers had gone through all of this because they wanted to follow the counsel of the prophet, to go to Utah and gather with the Saints. The really cool thing was that on all of the other river crossings, the young men continued to help the girls across without being asked. It was a great thing to see.






The first day we went to Martin's Cove. We started by watching a very moving video about some of the events that took place there, just to start us off with red eyes and runny noses. Then we got our handcarts and started out. After trekking a few miles, we left our carts and headed up into the cove. Martin's Cove has been dedicated by President Hinckley as the Open Wyoming Temple. It is very sacred. The missionaries asked that we not talk while in the cove. I happened to end up towards the back of the pack and found myself walking by my son, Kallai. Kallai doesn't turn 12 for another 2 weeks, but he was allowed to go with the youth, and I am so glad he was there. As we made the final ascent into the cove, I held Kallai's hand, and we walked into the cove together. That was really special for me. We each chose a Pioneer ancestor to represent on our trek. Kallai was Squire Reynolds, and I was his mother, Phoebe Jane Ramsey. They were not in any of the handcart trains, but they crossed the plains with Brigham Young's wagon company when Squire was about 7 years old.
As I walked to the Cove holding my son's hand, I thought of Phoebe and her son, as well as all of the mothers in the Martin and Willie handcart companies. I thought of how it must have felt for them to see their children going through so much suffering, and danger and to not have the power to protect them. It must have been heartwrenching. As I sat in the Cove on one of the steps, the thought was impressed upon me that what our youth are going through today is just as dangerous as the trials of the handcart company. Our children are in just as much danger of being lost, but the danger is not physical, but spiritual. I started to think about whether I was doing all I could to protect my children from that danger. Many of the parents who died on the trek gave out from exhaustion because they pushed their handcarts all day long, and then gave their ration of flour to their children, to strengthen and preserve them. They did anything they could for their children. If they could have done more, they would have. Am I making that level of sacrifice for my children? No, and I'm not sure I'm required to, but I could do better. I will do better. I made that commitment to myself in Martin's Cove.

After Martin's Cove, we drove an hour away to our campground. Just as we arrived, it began to rain. It was then that the Bishop said he had prayed that we would have an "authentic" experience on our trek. I asked him why he had to do that, because now we were in for terrible weather. There were amazing lightning flashes that went all the way to the ground. They were a bit scary, and they were striking extremely close by. Luckily the rain didn't last very long, and we were able to set up camp in relatively dry conditions. Once dinner and square dancing was over with, the rain came again, and it rained much of the night.

The next day we woke up to heavy clouds, and cool weather. We grabbed our handcarts, loaded them up, and started a 10 mile trek. Jordan was told that he had died during the night, so he had to wear a black armband, help push the medical cart, and couldn't talk. Well, the not talking part didn't work out too well, because all the dead people sang tv show theme songs the whole way. I walked by that cart most of the way, and we had a good time. It started raining almost immediately. Most of us had rain ponchos, but even so, our arms and legs became soaked. The trail became slick and covered in mud and puddles. Our first stop was in a very special meadow. It stopped raining when we got there, and only misted for a while. The meadow was where the Willie Handcart company stopped and couldn't go on because they were so exhausted. There they were met by 4 young men who were an advanced rescue company. Unfortunately they didn't have much in the way of help. All they had was the good news that rescue wagons were waiting for them about 20 miles away. It was enough to get the company moving again to meet up with the rescuers.
One of the missionaries there told us about her great great grandfather Ole Hansen. Before he set out with his family to meet the rescuers, he gave his ration of flour to his kids. He pushed his handcart all day long and into the night. When they came to the crossing of the Sweetwater river, he carried each of his children across, then his wife, then went back for the handcart. (This was in negative 20 degree weather or colder.) He continued on until they made it over Rocky Ridge and into Rock Creek Hollow. He set up his family's tent and made them a fire. Then when he was sure that his family was safe in the hands of the rescuers, he sat down and died with his boots still on. They buried him with his boots because they were frozen to his feet, so they couldn't get them off. As I listened to this story, I realized that if we had been in the same situation, David would have done the exact same thing. That sounds like him exactly! He is very selfless, and always worried about the comfort of others over his own. This experience helped me gain a greater appreciation and love for my husband.
By the time we left the meadow we were all shivering from the cold and from sitting still. I was miserable. I knew we would have to cross the river 4 times that day, and I was really dreading it. There was an option of taking a shorter trail that was 6 miles long, and bypassed all of the river crossings, and I tried to convince the YW President to vote for that trail. I was unsuccessful, but as we continued on, we warmed up from the exertion, so it wasn't bad. After a while, a man came and told us all of our men were being drafted into the Mormon Batallion, so the girls would have to push the handcarts by themselves. Three other women and I pushed the medical handcart together for about 1/2 mile. Of course we had to push for the hardest part of the whole trail. It was uphill most of the way, and it was quite steep. Adding to that was the fact that it was raining again, and the trail was slick and muddy. It was deeply rutted, and it was hard to keep our feet from sliding sideways down into the ruts, as well as sliding back down the hill. The handcarts are 250 pounds empty, and I'm sure we had at least 100 pounds of stuff in the cart, with the medical supplies, clothing, several coolers of water, etc. At the top of the hill the boys and men were lined up on either side of the trail with their hats off, and they had to watch us struggle and were not allowed to help. It was pretty cool that we made it by ourselves, but I think I pulled my achilles tendon, because now it hurts to walk up stairs.
Soon after that we stopped for lunch. The rain was still coming down, and the wind was howling, and the temperature was 49 degrees. I was so cold. It was the last opportunity to take the 6 mile trail, and I was hoping that we would. The bishop and the YW President discussed it, and the bishop commented that he was so impressed by how positive the kids were, and how none of them were complaining about the conditions. That made me feel quite embarrassed and contrite, because I had been complaining. I decided that I needed to stop it right then, and commit fully to the experience. The decision was made to complete the 10 mile trek, with all of the river crossings. The YW President told me that because I was on the food committe, I could go ahead and take the 6 mile trail with a few others, but I declined. I decided if my children could do it with a good attitude, then so could I.


We started out again. By this time, Kallai was starting to wear out. He was the youngest on the trip, and he was struggling to keep going, and he felt like he was getting a cold. His family put him into the cart and let him ride for a while. As the day went on, it stopped raining, and started to warm up. By the time we got to the first river crossing, most of us had taken off our coats and were actually pretty comfortable. Kallai got out and started walking again at the first river crossing, and continued for the rest of the way. Before the first river crossing, we came to a spot where the trail was flooded. The mud was really deep, and the people pushing the handcarts had to take it at a run to keep from getting stuck. Several people fell in the mud which was really stinky.


At the first river crossing, we were told of how the handcart company couldn't find the courage to cross the river, which had ice floating in it, and four young men from the rescue party spent the entire day carrying the people of the company across. The young men of our group were asked to carry the women and girls across, and that it should be a very solemn crossing. A group of women sang as people started across. I was one of the last women to cross, and Jordan carried me across on his back. That was pretty special. On the far bank, people had begun singing hymns, and we continued to sing as the men brought the handcarts across. One of the songs we sang was "We thank thee oh God for a prophet" and it was then that I felt the spirit the strongest. I realized that the handcart pioneers had gone through all of this because they wanted to follow the counsel of the prophet, to go to Utah and gather with the Saints. The really cool thing was that on all of the other river crossings, the young men continued to help the girls across without being asked. It was a great thing to see.
When we made it back to camp we found all of our tents filled with huge puddles of water. The missionaries had advised us that we should put our tents down flat so if the winds kicked up (they regularly get 70 mph winds) our tents wouldn't blow away. It was good advice, except for the fact that it made the rain seep through the sides. Luckily most of the sleeping bags were in garbage bags. The missionaries came and offered to dry the wet sleeping bags, and we used brooms and towels to dry out the tents.



That night for dinner the kids were told they were eating 4 ounces of flour, and a potato (which is one potato more than the pioneers got.) We gave them their rations, and then sent them to their family fire to figure out how to eat it. They were suprisingly creative and positive. Some tried to make potato soup, some made gruel, some sliced and roasted their potato over the fire, some made ash cakes (basically you mix flour and water, then dump the dough into the ashes and let it cook). I didn't hear anyone complain at all. After they worked on their dinner for a while, the "rescuers" came and rescued them from their meager meal, and gave them pulled pork sandwiches. As positive as they had been about the potatoes and flour, the kids shouted for joy at the news of a better dinner.


The last day of our trek we drove to Rock Creek Hollow, the place where the Willie Company met up with the main rescue party. We had a very spiritual testimony meeting there. It was great to hear what the youth had learned. I was surprised that several of them said that they were glad for the miserable weather, because it helped them feel closer to the pioneers. After our meeting we headed back to civilization. I was shocked to see how fast our bishop drove. We were going 85 mph trying to keep up with the people in front of us, and he blew by us like we were standing still! Needless to say the car we were in got home about an hour after everyone else. It was good to be home.












